Broken taps, cars and hearts....

So last night at about 8pm we realised that our back tap had sprung a leak... a big one.
Thankfully Bunnings in Tuggers is open until 9pm.
I did not know that.
I also did not know how massive the store is... HUGE.

So instead of having a relaxing night... we ran about and fixed our back tap.

And today my car is getting a service.
While Nath's will be looked at during our lunch break.. has a strange dunk-dunk-dunk noise happening!!
Not good.

Also not good... I still do not have a job to go to on 11 December.
Technically ~I do... as I will be working for my Agent company... re-doing all their templates.
Which will probably take a week or more.

Secretly.... {or not so secretly}, I am kind of glad for this forced break.
Glad to be spending some more time with Mikaela... and with Nath.
At home.
Just spending time TOGETHER.
Just being.

Not busy rushing here and there.
All over the place.
But not really stopping to appreciate all that we have.
Each other.
At the end of the day.. that is all that matters... and that is all I care about.

I just dont seem to have the time... to find out exactly what is going on in my daughters head.
I dont spend enough time with her.

I want to:
* go down to the oval... and lay on the grass and make pictures in the clouds.
* skip to the shops... get her an icecream.
* spend the day at the pool and watch her play.
* lay on a rug.. and chat and giggle.
* create picnics... and enjoy them with her and Nath while we play some cricket.

Okay... let me re-phase... I *DO* all those things now, just not enough!
I practically work full time... only on the afternoons we have Mikaela, I finish early to be with her.
Still I feel that time is slipping by so quickly... and I am missing out !

I am.

I LOVE that Mikaela spends time with her Dad... and at times I really dislike it too... intensely. I miss her so much!

When I feel this way... I remind myself: Its only going to get harder, when Nath and I have a babe... and Mikaela has a baby brother or sister... it will be heartbreaking to have her away from us for 3 nights. But hey.. we'll cross that bridge when we come to it... and I am sure we will work something out.

Oh this life of ours....
Its a juggling act for sure.
Beautiful still.
Peace and Love out...
Bx

Embrace Change...

You know when you are finishing up a job... it is not easy to be enthusiastic about it!

That is where I am at. Unenthusiastic about where I spend the majority of my days... biding my time.

And thats okay... in fact, its good.

I have been here a few times... this cusp of major change.

Usually it is only onto the next contract... this time it is MUCH more.

I have the opportunity to place myself where I would really like to be in 2007 and 2008. For Me, He and She. For our babes yet born.

I know LOGICALLY the best thing at this stage is another year contracting... so I have the money to back us, to be totally prepared for the next venture I intend to take in my life. My heart tells me... just take the leap, do it now... you can be no better prepared than you are today!Its exciting.

Instead of being down about my contract ending... and unsure of my future... I am really excited about it.

I love the endless possiblilites that I have available to me.

To our family.

To our future.

Change also gives you a shake.... it forces you to evaluate:

where you are at...

what you have been doing...

and what you REALLY WANT to be doing in your future.

With your life.

Maybe its the Gemini in me... I am happiest amist change... and challenge.
Or I guess that is just that everyone likes to be challenged.

Needs to be challenged.

And sometimes the very thing you wish for... manifest in ways you do not necessarily expect or desire (like no earnings).... but it is all exactly what you require... to get you to where you want to be!

Just is.

Thankfully not everything changes... a certain amount remains the same, constant. Like Nath, Mikaela... my family, my rock and my gorgeous sisters and friends.

Life is beautiful.

Bx